Monday, July 26, 2010

Trying so hard to hold on, but it's so hard. No matter howmany women i meet in the baby lost community there seems to be 20times more in babybliss without a care in the world. I would so love to be there. I would say one day but who am i kidding i want to be there , seems like i need to be there soon. And even soon is not enough. I needed to be there yesterday. Geesh i am so tired of this up and down feeling. I wouldn't mind having a numb moment right now. But who am i kidding i will never be in baby bliss, i know all too well the things that can go wrong, but i'd settle for a nice beginning and a happy ending willing to do whatever i'd have to in between. But until then i guess i will just write and hope, and pray and hope, and wish and want

and did i say

Hope.

7 comments:

The Blue Sparrow said...

Shandrea, Oh sweet girl! I am so so sorry you're going through this again! I'll be wishing, and hoping, and praying for you right along with you! (((HUGS)))

Antoinette said...

(((hugs))) yes I know what you mean...after I lost alyssa no matter how many blms (and i have met MANY) I know so many that are preg or having had them already and they are all girls =*( its like a knife in the chest...and I am so so so scared to do this again...and your courage is helping me...but I can not truly imagine where you are coming from...i am praying for you and me too!!

The Meuniers said...

Praying for you, Shandrea! I am so sorry you are in so much pain. I am hoping with you and for you!

Holly said...

Baby bliss would sure be nice. Keep on hoping hun! ((hug))

Lori said...

Praying and hoping for the same for you sweet friend!!! I think the up and down are to be expected..you've been through so much in such a short, short amount of time.

Love to you!

Tabitha said...

Praying for you sweet Shandrea and sending hugs and love your way!

klarsen said...

Love you and praying for you. xoxoxoxoxo

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