Monday, July 5, 2010

Beautiful Ladies

I first want to thank you all for the love and kindness and prayers you all have sent. I want you to know that i am truly thankful to God for all of you and the women that i can't even name right now. The love has been overwelming and it truly does my heart joy. I feel your prayers and i feel your love and know that eventhough Tristen had to go and be with his brother and sister and all the other angels, know that God heard you. Know that he listened. Because it can only be through your prayers and the many others who were praying for my husband and I that I have made it through as I have. Your prayers are the reason God has left me my sanity. Your prayers are the reason that i can sit here and type to you now. Yes I am broken. Truly truly broken, but i can't help but be joyful at all the people that God has put around me and in my life. I have witnessed some losing their faith after one loss, let alone any more than that. But I have not. I know that there is a lesson in all of this. I have recieved some answers without even getting on my knees to talk to God, but he let me know that he is with me and though i'm hurt i'm glad to know that. He is with me in your kind words and virtual hugs , your tears and of course your prayers.I have been writting the past couple of days because i couldn't get on my blog and there may be some things that i will post on there that may may seem that i have lost my faith, but know that i haven't . I still trust and believe in God and his power. Know that i love you all and i am still celebrating at your joys and milestones reached. Know that i still mourn with you at your hurts and trials but most of all know that i still love, that i can still smile and that though not quite the same I am still me.


With my deepest Love
Shandrea

16 comments:

The Blue Sparrow said...

My heart is aching for you! I havent been able to stop thinking and praying for you. Having gone through losing more than one pregnancy I can relate so much to the emotion in this post. If you need anything, anything at all, please let me know. I will be praying. (((HUGS)))

Jennifer said...

You and your husband have been on my mind constantly! God has just burdened my heart with the need to pray. I think it is very ok to shout and stomp your feet at God. I think it is very ok to scream why, why, why. He is a huge God and knows your sorrow. Praying first and foremost, but sending very BIG hugs your way.

Marie W said...

Love you too Shandrea! {hugs}. I am amazed at your spirit and faith. Know that you are constantly in my thoughts.

AHB said...

I do not know you, but I admire you for your constant faith through all of your losses. One was hard enough for me..I have been praying for you through your ordeal even though I didn't know what was going on..I just prayed because a good friend of ours asked me to..I will continue to pray for your family as you grieve the loss of your third child. I truly admire your strength and your courage. Thank you for sharing your wonderful yet tragic story because it really does help those of us who are struggling with our own feelings..Sending you lots of hugs and prayers.

Lisette said...

You are an amazing person. I am so sorry for your losses. I have been praying for you (through Katy's blog). ((HUGS))

Antoinette said...

I am still praying for you...((hugs)) your faith in inspiring!!!

Parents of the Princess and Duchess said...

Shandrea - my heart breaks tonight hearing this. I'm so sorry. Thinking of you, sending you big hugs, and praying for you and your husband that you will find the peace only He can give.

Brandon and Melani said...

I am so sorry for your loss of Tristen, Jaiden, and Xavier. You are a very strong faithful woman! Though I don't know you, my heart is breaking for you! You and your family are in my prayers!!!

Melani(found you through Katy's blog)

Karin said...

Shandrea, my heart hurts for you. Your words show your deep love and faith. Thinking of you often and praying for your peace.

Devon said...

this is a beautiful post...my heart is broken upon hearing about your most recent lost. its just not fair. i so admire your faith and i know that god is with you....i also know grief is a roller coaster so be gentle with yourself....we are here to listen!

((hugs))

Tabitha said...

Heartbroken for you and your husband. Sending prayers and hugs your way:(

rebecca said...

So incredibly sorry for your many losses, may God continue to grant you the strength & support that you need during this difficult time. Your faith is so inspiring. My husband & I just lost our daughter Lily a week ago due to premature labor 23wks into my pregnancy. I am thankful to see that your faith in God has continued even in the face of such intense tragedy & grief.

Shandrea said...

I just love you all. You all mean so much too me. The love and support is just amazing.

Andrea said...

Grace,

I love you so much

xoxo
your sister of the heart

Hannah Rose said...

wow I just heard about your story from the ladies at the anchored by hope Bible study. you are such a beautiful woman...your strength is staggering! what an encouragment to me and a witness to all to stand so firm in your faith. it builds my faith. i am so sorry for all three of your precious losses. you will be in prayers!!!

Holly said...

Love to you always and your sweet babies ♥

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