I first want to thank you all for the love and kindness and prayers you all have sent. I want you to know that i am truly thankful to God for all of you and the women that i can't even name right now. The love has been overwelming and it truly does my heart joy. I feel your prayers and i feel your love and know that eventhough Tristen had to go and be with his brother and sister and all the other angels, know that God heard you. Know that he listened. Because it can only be through your prayers and the many others who were praying for my husband and I that I have made it through as I have. Your prayers are the reason God has left me my sanity. Your prayers are the reason that i can sit here and type to you now. Yes I am broken. Truly truly broken, but i can't help but be joyful at all the people that God has put around me and in my life. I have witnessed some losing their faith after one loss, let alone any more than that. But I have not. I know that there is a lesson in all of this. I have recieved some answers without even getting on my knees to talk to God, but he let me know that he is with me and though i'm hurt i'm glad to know that. He is with me in your kind words and virtual hugs , your tears and of course your prayers.I have been writting the past couple of days because i couldn't get on my blog and there may be some things that i will post on there that may may seem that i have lost my faith, but know that i haven't . I still trust and believe in God and his power. Know that i love you all and i am still celebrating at your joys and milestones reached. Know that i still mourn with you at your hurts and trials but most of all know that i still love, that i can still smile and that though not quite the same I am still me.
With my deepest Love
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