it has been almost two weeks since i lost my 2cnd angel. I know this b/c i go in tomorrow for my two week check up. I'm nervous, sad and angry all at the same time. I'm nervous b/c i have to go in a waiting room with women who have bellies and baby's in their arms, i'm gonna pray that i don't break down crying in the waiting area, i'm sad of course b/c my baby is gone, and i'm angry b/c i was told everything would be alright and a wk later my precious baby was gone. So now what do i say to the doctor who told me everything looked fine, how do i react, well how will i react is the better question? i honestly don't know. All i know is that i want my baby back safe where she can grow and be warm and be loved. I know that i am tired of hearing baby announcements from people who either have like 4 or 5 already or people who complain b/c they found out they are pg. i mean if only they could understand, ( i'm not saying that i wish this on them at all, i wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy) but if they had a inkling of what we baby lost moms go through, i know they wouldn't complain or contemplate certain solutions to what they deem their problems. But now i am just rambling so i am going to enrdd here and just say "Lord give me strength"