Friday, December 4, 2009

Questions

As i sit at home i thought about all the questions people ask you, like, what's wrong, what happened, are you okay, how are you feeling ect. And i thought about the couple of times i did answer them and got no reply or if i did get a reply it was a " oh" or "i'm so sorry'. So in thinking about this i came up with this poem , well not sure if it is a poem or a short story or just a thought but however you choose to classify it i wanted to share it with you all today, to see if anyone could relate or is it just me

if i told you that i lost a piece of me today, what would you say, would you hold me and let me cry in your arms or would you simply go on about your day, would you show me sympathy or even try to find words or just pretend that you miss heard. surely you can't understand what i am goin through, i mean it's not everyday that you loose a part of you. or even a lifetime or a decade, but it happens. it happened to me, i lost a piece of me, no wait not a piece a chunk that has left a big gaping wound where my heart used to be, i'm bleeding profusely,no i'm hemraging and i don't know how to stop it, but in the mist of it god came and a said daughter i feel your pain,he allowed me to sleep while he put me back together, and when i feel empyty he fills me me with his word, yea though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil, for thou art with me. so even if you don't say a word i now know that if i tell you that i lost a piece of me today you and can't find the words , it's okay, my father in heaven knows what to say.

Hugs and Love to all
Shandrea

2 comments:

Andrea said...

Shandrea,

Your post is beautiful and you are a talented writer...speaking from the heart and being so real. Its healing, isn't it.

And your FAITH, you are simply amazing...amazing! You are a true believer and are dutiful in believing "he directs our steps"

May God continue to hold you in the palm of his hand.

Love to you today and always,
Andrea

DeniFay said...

I can definately echo those words! I love every bit of what you said b/c it is sooo true! Your babies were huge chunks of you and you will never be the same! I must say, I prefer the "oh", or "I'm sorry" to "God knew what He was doing", that one infuriates me as I don't believe that God took my babies! You are so strong, and graceful, and grace-filled! God bless you and thank you for sharing part of yourself with me! Deni

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