After a few days of peace, and dare i say it , a little bit of happiness. The sadness is back and it sucks. it started yesterday when i found out i'm gonna have to wait a little longer than i wanted before i can start school. and i know i know it's nothing major, that at least i will still get to go, just not when i want to. But the having to wait is not why i cried. I cried b/c i went to visit the school with an expectation and unfortunately what i expected didn't happen, I cried b/c i just wanted something to go my way. This past year and a half has been nothing but heartache and i just wanted a moment of good news for me. Sometimes i feel like i ask God for too much at once but then i think he's a mighty God he's able to do exceedingly abundantly more that i can ever imagine, so the things that i ask for arent much at all. which then leads me to wandering what am i doing wrong, what am i missing, what am i not seeing. I mean i am truly thankful that he hears my prayers when I ask him to bless others. I am truly happy for them when i hear of therir good news. But i just want, no need just something good in my life. I know that good things are coming my way, I just need to them to come a little quicker i guess.