Seasons

Since the beginning of this year I have heard many sermons on "This is my season" "This is your season" ( not talking directly to me of course but the congregtation as a whole) not only have I heard sermons but i've come across people in geral say that this is our season, or this is their season or telling me this is my season. And of course I know they all meant the season to prosper,but I find that not to necesarily true. What some don't seem to realize is that your season is not always a happy one, it can be your season for joy or your season for hardship and many other things. For a bit I truly beleived it was my season to be joyful to be happy , that the storm had passed. I mean 2009 was awful and I surley would't have a repeat of that, but I now know how wrong i was.


The word says it best:

Ecc3:1-8 says

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend,a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.

I am so over this season ( over as meaning i am tired of it.) I am tired of the crying, i'm tired of the sadness , i'm tired of the gloom, i'm tired of wishing, and wanting and waiting. I am so ready to walk into my season. I'm ready to smile again without tears following a few hours or days later. I want this sorrow to go away. Right now just sucks and I don't wanna be in this place. I'm tired of this place. It's cold, sometimes dark, lonely and just plain sad.

I want this storm to be over. I want off this darn roller coaster. I want to smile again. I want my time to laugh and dance and love . Only this time I want to love a baby hear alive and healthy.