This is Camron's due date and one would think that if i got through that then 9-9-2010 should be a breeze. But it isn't. because now there are thoughts of "had my body not failed, had i not failed then he'd be turning one today". I think of all the milestones that would have passed in only the first year of his life. The first time he crawled, his first steps, the first time he said ma ma or da da, . I wonder how much he'd way now, how big would he be? I think of how loved and somewhat spoiled he'd be. How special i would have made this day for him. But here i sit with empty arms and a piece of my heart gone.
So today I am blowing kisses to heaven and sending prayers on the wings of angels to my little angel to let him know that I love him and I miss him. He will always be my first born, my first joy and my first love.
Forever Loving My Angels