Sunday, October 3, 2010

Wrapped up

Sometimes I feel like i'm just wrapped up in myself a little too much. and i truly don't mean to be at all. But it seems like (or at least feels like ) life has dumped a lot on me these days (this past year and a half) that it's hard for me to keep up. I feel bad when i've let a few days slide in between reading blogs and then i find out i've missed and important date, or that i have date marked but i'm so wrapped up in me and the things going on that i forget. It's like i'm giving back the love that i have recieved and it kinda sucks. I still pray for everyone, sometimes in general and sometimes specific, but i just get a little upset sometimes that I sometimes forget about doing the things that i want to do. I guess it just sucks sometimes. I dont' know . this evening is just a random thought that i had to get out of my head I guess.

I've been wanting to write lately but i've been so wrapped up in me it's hard b/c i'm in one of those moments (that i seem to have often lately) where i feel a certain way but yet i don't know what it is. I'm almost feeling a million things at once yet nothing at all . ( I know makes me sound a little crazy huh) but hey, that's the way i feel right now.

But again know that I am praying and that none of you are ever far from my heart or thoughts.

Cam, Xavien and Tristen, I miss you so much right now. I wish i had better words to describe what i'm feeling but all i can come up with is that i miss you and i love you, from the depths of my soul, the bottom of my heart, with my life I love you.


cgd said...

Of course you are wrapped up in your own head, that is to be expected. You have more than anyone's share in this past year. I know you miss your babies. I am sending you all love.

Andrea said...


Don't ever feel as if you are overly indulging in yourself. Often times we need to focus on ourselves, our issues and how to best move forward. Taking time to do this is healthy and healing. We reach out when we can and when we can't that is okay, as its human. You should never feel as if you are not doing "enough" for the rest of do plenty. Just keep sendin up those prayers :)

Give yourself a break honey and give youself some more much needed "me" time.

Great BIG hugs and a bouquet of Sunshine coming straight to you!

Much Love Always

Michelle said...

"I'm almost feeling a million things at once yet nothing at all." I feel that way a lot! So if you are crazy then I'm crazy too. But I really don't think so. You have been through A LOT so we give you permission to forget, I'm sure most of us can relate. Like Andrea said, give yourself a break.

DeniFay said...

I think we all feel this way, being through all the you've been through it's totally understandable. You are wonderful, supportive, beautiful, and special to me!!! Sending you lots of love and prayers!

Annie said...

Just the fact that you are thinking about how to help others and praying for others shows that you are NOT all wrapped up in yourself. Life has dumped a lot on you in a short time and it takes up a lot of your time and energy just to try to dig out from under it.

Jennifer Ross said...

I came over to your blog to tell you that I was thinking of you. I feel like a bad friend myself. I haven't really been blogging for the last couple of months. So much going on in my life. It doesn't mean that we don't think about all of our friends. We all understand. You and the other woman out here in the blog world, are some of my closest friends. I think about all of you... all the time. Seriously.

Take care and don't worry about taking time to yourself. We have all learned how precious ever second of our life is.



Lori said...


I wish I could give you a big hug in are always in my prayers and heart!

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