Wednesday, February 3, 2010

And They're back!

Yes their back! The thoughts of "i wanna be pregnant", "when will i be pregnant"" am i pregnant" "it think i'm pregnant" "nope i'm not pregnant" "when should we start" " are we ready to start""can i get pregnant again""why not me""why them". Not exactly in that order but they are back. i'd been doing good for a while and these thoughts don't totally consume me but they are there again, especially when life throws one of it's little triggers, and in my case right now it's the announcements of new pregnancies, and not just any but it especially sucks when it's from people that i know didn't want anymore or love to party and hang out more than they are at home with the children they have. It just boggles my mind. But i will continue to look to god and the wonderful encouraging people (my kindred spirits) that he has put in my life. What a long road we walk..........

5 comments:

Andrea said...

Walking this road certainly isn't easy but in the long run we will be stronger, cherish and have more appreciation for our families, see the beauty in others more freely, love more openly. I'm thinking of you. XOXO

Marie W said...

Shandrea,
Those thoughts have been with me also. I desperately want another, but the fear of the unknown sends me into panic. I keep asking myself, what if it happens again? Sending you some hugs because I am right there with you.

Nan & Mike said...

Amazing how we can get our minds back to "that" place again...women are truly resilient. You inspire so many, and continue to keep your faith strong, I am always in awe of you. These are not easy thoughts, but it's a forward looking thought, which is good, even if sometimes it hurts. Hugs sweet girl. Love, Nan

DeniFay said...

Oh those thoughts!!! Why can't we banish them? I know it's hard, but your faith will get you through! You are so special and I'm praying for you sweet girl!! Thank you for your love & support of me! It means so much!!

Andrea said...

Grace,

Hang in there, we all have those thoughts. It's such a mixed emotional bag, but we work through it...one day at a time. I feel confident in our futures. Keep Believing and keep talking to God.

HUGS and Love to you always,
xoxo

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