Yes I'm back again. Two posts in one day, i must really be feeling some things. But at least this time i am back feeling better than i was earlier and since i wrote about the sad i feel i need to write about when i'm better. I first want to thank everyone for the love and the prayers. They certainly have helped. It's funny , just when you think you've arrived , life has a way of showing you where you really are. And that's okay with me. I'm glad that i fell off track for a moment, it allowed me to think and to process things. and now i see. Yes i still hurt, yes there are times that i will still be sad, sadder than most even. But as i have said before and I will say again, I have hope. I have the promises God has made to me. I have the love and the words that he has given me. I have again HOPE! and as long as i hold on to that i will be just fine. I may cry , kick and scream, but i will still keep my hope. I will do my best and keep my mind stayed of Him. Let him hold me in his arms, welcome the comfort and love that He sends my way and just remember the promises he made. Geesh God is good. Even when i cant see how at the moment, he is still good to me. So i will be good to me too. I will take it one day at a time, focus on me and do the best that i can and when i can't ask him for help, all the while i will still HOPE.