This morning i was reading my bible and i came across proverbs 13:12 which says
Hope deferred maketh the heart sick:but when a desire cometh, it is a tree of life.
For what reason i don't know but for a moment i couldn't look at anything else, i just kept reading it over and over again, it spoke strongly to me, it's meaning was on the tip of my tongue but i wasn't quite sure if it was telling me what i think it's telling me. So i looked it up online as well, and i was right. I didn't even read the the whole thing that i found but stopped as soon as i knew i was right. This short verse gave me such joy. My hands are shaking as i type this right now.
It says a hope deferred. All of hopes are were and are still to have earthly children. So this tells me that our hopes and dreams aren't over, they are not gone or withered away, they are only deferred. That it doesn't mean they won't come true but they are simply not at the time we desire, and yes this has made us sick with doubt , hurt, anger, sadness and even depression, but this is only temporary. Because it is only a hope deferred i know that yes i am going to be all these things at some point, even after writting this and being so happy right now , i could still have a down day, BUT! i know it's only temporary, i know to keep going because this is only temporaray and that if i keep hope and keep faith that i am going to get my hearts desire, i will be blessed and as the passage states, when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life. When we do finally get to that finish line and hold and earthly baby in our arms it will be the most wonderful experience. In this i am renewed. No matter what anyone says, i know that my dream will come so i challenge you to find hope in this as i did, no matter what it looks like now, just know in your heart that your latter will be greater than your past.
Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you:
for everyone that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.
God shall bless us, and though we may wonder if it will ever have just know that it will but in his time not ours.