This evening was the close out of our churches 10yr anniversary and the guest pastor said something that really touched my heart.
He said "You've prayed about , now it's time to praise him about it"
Of all the things he said , this stuck with me the most. It made me think, how many times have i prayed to god about my sitiuation, (of course many many many times), and not to say that because i wasn't paising him is why i wasn't getting the results i was looking for, but sometimes our praises will get the ball moving a little faster than what it might have been.
And yes when i'm at church and even home, i have praised God, but we all know that when you are down and your heart is heavy, it is so very hard to give him that praise , that shout or that Amen that you give when everything is wonderful.
It just made me wonder...............how much quicker would God move if i praise or even just attempt to praise at my worst. How much quicker would i feel at peace in my moment of despair. I am in no way saying that my hearing from God is dependant or solely dependant on my praise, but i can just imagine the things in store for me even if it's just another happy moment, even if it's just strength in order to give God his praise.
Friday night at our first service for the anniversary celebration, there was a pg woman there. Talk about life throwing you a curve ball or, as my kindred Andrea H says "lifes emotional triggers". I thought i was doing okay with an angelversary and EDD coming up in April, but of course life has a way of showing you where you are sometimes. Looking at this lady all i could think is "that's how your belly should look right now, you should be counting down the days until you're holding your daughter in your arms". And it really caught me by surprise. I was in the middle of singing along with the praise and worship team and i litterally lost my voice. It took everything i had in me not to cry, but of course the tears won out .
Even then without even knowing why , i was kinda mad at myself for not continuing to sing. And i know that i shouldn't have been, but when those words came across this evening, i thought to myself "what if i would have kept praising him" Even with that what if i still have faith and i still believe that God will , no God is answering my prayers.
Forever Loving My Angels