I Still Remember

I still remember the day i found out i would be a mom, two little pink lines that equaled a happy face for me. I still rember hearing your heart beat for the first time. I still remember your first picture. I still remember how ackward i felt learning not to sleep on my stomach. I still remember getting agitated with daddy when he would fall asleep with his hand across my belly................................................................................................................................

and I still remember the night my world was turned upside down. I remember wishing that something could be done. I remember clinging to hope. I remember things not going my way. I remember holding you and there being no sounds except your daddy and my sobbing. I remember studying your lips and your eyes and nose and little body. I remember wishing it was all a bad dream.....................................................................................................................................

I still remember how much I loved you before i'd even saw you. I fell in love at just the thought of you. I remember loving you evenmore when I held. I remember the love i felt for all the other angels and their moms. I remember the lessons I have learned through you. I remember thanking God I'm not alone eventhough i would'nt wish for anyone to join this club. I remember that you are now safe in the masters arms............................................................................

and though some of these memories are hard and still bring an ache to my heart, I wouldn't trade them, I wouldn't trade knowing you, I wouldn't trade loving you and wouldn't trade all the good (though sometimes hard to see) that God has brought me through this.

Mommy Loves you Camron and Xavien.

Forever Loving my Angels.