It's hard to believe that today marks one year with out you.
One year since I held you.
One year since I've looked upon your sweet face.
One year since I said goodbye but never really saying it.
One year since you changed my life.
One year since I learned how much I could love one tiny soul so much.
One year since you've gone to heaven.
One year of holding on.
Holding on to how it felt to hold you.
Holding on to how much you looked more like me than your dad.
Holding on to the feeling of how it felt to Love someone more than I thought I ever could.
Holding on to this new me that I'd have never know had I not known you.
Holding on to the fact that though you're not here I could never really say goodbye.
Holding on the compassion that you have taught me.
Holding on to bittersweet memories of you.
It's hard to believe that it's been a year already. Sometimes it feels like yesterday. I love you more that words could ever describe and though this day a year ago was one of the hardest days in my life, I don't want to forget it. It has taught me so much , (even though it was hard to see in the beginning). I am stronger, I love deeper, I have compassion for others. I understand how valuable life is.
Though I only held you for a moment, I will hold you in my heart forever.
Mommy Loves you Camron Jaiden.
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
I may never understand why you had to go, but I will trust God and believe that this will all work out for the good.
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Thankful for poop on the floor!
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