So I thought

Tonight I did something I probably shouldn't have. I read a post about loss......
I thought I could handle it, I thought I would be okay, but here I sit in tears as I type, and for a second I thought why are you crying so hard.... and then I realized


 it's April his month.......


It will be five years since Camron has been  gone and at this moment I feel empty. And yes I know I should be thankful for Jace and I am, more than anyone can fathom, but having him doesn't take away the memory of my first born. The first one to show me what instant love is. And I miss him.  At this very moment I miss him so terribly much............................