Wednesday, April 18, 2012

He was worth it

Before I start let me first say that in no way do i mean that I am happy about losing any of my children that I wish nothing more than to have been able to have them here with me, because they do matter they are loved and they are missed.

But, this bundle of joy, their little brother, my rainbow, he was worth it all. This journey, the heartache the pain, the lessons, the perseverance , he was worth it all. In saying this I am saying that I am glad that after losing three babies I didn't throw in the towel, I didn't give up on my dream, my desire of being an earthly mommy, because he was worth it. Jace was and is worth it.

He has brought me such joy, and smiles and hope. I grow more and more in love with him each day. I love the feel of skin against mine. I love to see him smile in his sleep. He is worth it. He is worth me giving everything I have in me to love him, to teach him, to guide him, to care for him. He makes me want to be a better person. He is my drive, my motivation. He is a part of me, a part of his sister and brothers. He reminds me of what they could have been. I dream for him and hope for him and in doing this for him it reminds me of the hope i had for his siblings. Does that make me a bit sad at times yes, but it also makes me smile. He was so worth it.

And he still is. And nothing can change that.

Still loving my angels!


5 comments:

cgd said...

this brings tears to my eyes. so happy for you- such a sweet picture

Holly said...

I so agree! Def worth it :)

Jennifer Ross said...

What a beautiful picture of hope.......

Brie said...

..and I know you don't take a moment for granted. Seeing this photo, with the smile on your face, has been a long time coming..And yes, I am glad you had the courage to not throw in the towel, and keep trying.

Is Jace home now?

Debby@Just Breathe said...

I am so happy for you. Of course posts like this are my favorites to read. I love the joy that comes from the rainbow after the storms.
I am glad you never gave up on your dream.

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