But, this bundle of joy, their little brother, my rainbow, he was worth it all. This journey, the heartache the pain, the lessons, the perseverance , he was worth it all. In saying this I am saying that I am glad that after losing three babies I didn't throw in the towel, I didn't give up on my dream, my desire of being an earthly mommy, because he was worth it. Jace was and is worth it.
He has brought me such joy, and smiles and hope. I grow more and more in love with him each day. I love the feel of skin against mine. I love to see him smile in his sleep. He is worth it. He is worth me giving everything I have in me to love him, to teach him, to guide him, to care for him. He makes me want to be a better person. He is my drive, my motivation. He is a part of me, a part of his sister and brothers. He reminds me of what they could have been. I dream for him and hope for him and in doing this for him it reminds me of the hope i had for his siblings. Does that make me a bit sad at times yes, but it also makes me smile. He was so worth it.
And he still is. And nothing can change that.
Still loving my angels!