Hurting

As I sit and catch up of on blogs I see that so many of my friends are hurting. Wether it's from a fresh loss, grief rearing it's head unexpectantly, or an angelversary coming up, they are hurting. And in turn I hurt for them. I hurt at the fact that we all had to meet this way, I hurt at the fact that you are hurting. I hurt at the fact that I don't have the magic words to make the hurt go away, to bring back what was lost to replace the sorrow with joy. And though I don't comment often, know that I am here, reading and thinking of you and hoping for you and praying comfort your way.


Isaiah 61:3
To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.

28

First of all let me say I want to wish all my angel mommies a gentle and sweet Valentines Day.

Well blogosphere it's official , I have officially entered into the 3rd trimester. I am 28wks as of yesterday. Can you say excited and elated and anxious, because that's exactly what I am. And of course thankful. I am at a place that I've hoped to see 3 times and here I am finally on my fourth pregnancy and I've arrived. There are no other words to describe it except thankful. I am thankful for every little flutter, wave, move and kick. Thankful that my body is cooperating and holding (even with a little help of something called a TAC) long and strong my sweet baby safe within me. Thankful that I am growing and stretching ( even though it hurts a little sometimes) that my body is doing to accommodate my little miracle.

And though I am at this point I continue to hope and pray that me and this little one see many more weeks ( well 12 more weeks of him on the inside ) together of him growing and thriving ready to make his debut. He is estimated to arrive on May 7th. Hubby and I had a laugh today thinking what if he arrived on my B-day which is May 2 or His b-day which is May 6th. We agreed that whatever day he comes would be the best birthday gift to us both.

I am amazed everyday at this blessing. Sometimes it seem so surreal.

In honor of this momentous ( well at least to me anyway ) lol. I have rewarded myself by adding ticker to my page ( even if I have less than 100 days, shoot less than 90 days to go) it may seem silly but there was a point where I thought doing that would jinx me. So yaaaaaay me!

Loving my Angels always <3

27

I know I know I'm behind on the posting. It's been my routine lately.

Well this is gonna be short one.

I'm 27wks 5days along ( see told ya this was a late post. LoL) and I am just ecstatic. I didn't' think I could get anymore excited but I am. and as the time inches closer I think i will still become more and more excited. I must say that this week was a pick me up from the last. I've smiled more and relaxed more and have just felt good. I will be having a baby shower, thrown by my mom and aunt next month and I am also super excited about that. Not only that but it brings me that much closer to meeting this little guy. From the u/s some people are saying he's beginning to look like me, but we shall see.

I thought I lost my mucous plug this week, so I was nervous for a second, but I talked with Marie and she calmed me down and helped me feel better. I also had a ob appointment the next day. She checked me out and all is well. J is doing well and my cervix is long and closed still , so all good there. I have my 1hr glucose test on wednesday @ 9a.m wish me luck and send up some prayers cause I have not been the healthiest eater this time around.

It seems that J has gotten on a bit of a routine these past few weeks as he is very very very active from 11 to midnight then up and moving again around 5:30 then at 8 with little flutters and kicks throughout the day. It makes me wonder if this will be his schedule when he is actually here and home with us. ( Wow I just said when and not if! Go Me!) But we shall see.

I guess this post wasn't as short as I thought it would be ;O)

Well I will leave off with a Photo taken today :

26

Wow! I know here I am with the wow word again, but that's how I feel. at least that's the only way I can describe it. We are at 26wks. well 26wks and 3days to be exact. Well somewhat exact if I could calculate hours and minute that would be exact, but you get my drift. I must say the past few weeks have been somewhat challenging. Between dreams and some tough discussions with the hubby it's been interesting to say the least.

But today, today has been great! A wonderfully bittersweet moment which I can say it is majority sweet. I had an MFM appointment today and it went great! No changes in my cervix and it is still measuring at a 3.3. Which she then told me that this was my last appointment with her. ( yes I know "tear") But she said with me doing so well there is no need to see her anymore. We have made it past viability ( there's that word) and the next big step is making it to 28wks which for her is a time where she isn't worried about me delivering, but of course in our world we know all too differently, but still at the moment the fact that she was happy about it made me happy about it and of course she let it be known that she does want me to make it to 40 and believes I will. So yes though we where saying goodbye to Dr. S it was a great way to do so.

The Hubby and I also made our first big purchase in preparation for baby J. At least it was big for me. A mom car. yes I say mom car because I've gone from a 2 door read scion TC to a 4 door Lincoln MKX. So yes that's a big purchase and a big difference, but I am loving it thus far and and am looking forward to taking my little man around it.

Well I am done babbling for now so I will end with a few pics

26wks and I must say out of all the u/s pics we have this one is thus far the most precious one to me:

me at 23wks along



pic of my belly that hubby took at my doc appt.

and last but not least the bump at 26wks