Tuesday, November 16, 2010

A little catching up

Lets see................where to begin. I think i will get the somewhat gloomy out the way first. Well this month will be a heavy month for me. Wait you know what i take that back, God has been working on me and given me such a peaceful spirit that I don't even understand it. But that is what he said he'd do right so I shouldn't be too surprised right;

philippians 4: 6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. 7. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

But i am. Well i guess not surprised, but more amazed. I mean yes I know in my heart that God can do it, but when it's actually happening to you, it's a real eye opener (sp?) to how sovereign our God really is.

Okay let me get into the story so you can know what i mean. This month i should be a babbling mess. The 26th will mark my sweet baby girl Xavien's 1yr in heaven and then the day after that is Tristen's due date. And let me say I was truly dreading this month. But yet here i am. in one piece, at peace. Getting ready to go to my moms for the holiday. Having to look at my niece who was born 3months after cameron's due date. But i can truly sit here and say that i am okay. Yes I may shed some tears. Yes I'm going to light a candle and remember my sweet baby girl. Yes i will reflect on the fact that i should be getting ready for Tristens arrival, I'm doing that now, but i do it with a peace in my heart that I know can only be from God. He is truly an awesome God and I don't want to know where i'd be without him. I am truly thankful. For the people that he has put in my life to help me through. I am truly gratefu. For his love, for his guidence, for positive thinking, for the new things he has done and is doing in me I am truly thankful

I even stand bold on tonight and thank him in advance for successful pregnancies! (yes plural did you catch that ;o) I am believing that it will happen and not just for me, but i am hoping and believing for the hopeless as well. Don't worry if you're tired, just rest because i am believing.
Wow I guess taking time off has done me some good. God is good!

I think i am gonna stop here because if keep going it's gonna be a super long post ;O) good night all

Loving My Angels


cgd said...

I think you are amazing. Holding you and your sweet angels in my heart and thoughts.

Dawn said...

You really are just an incredible human being & such an inspiration. You are in my thoughts & prayers.

mrsnice777 said...

What an inspirational post! Your in a good spot! I'm kinda there too. Thanks for sharing this truth!


Holly said...

God is awesome and I'm so glad that He has cloaked you with peace.

Andrea said...


You truly embody that name in every sense...

I admire you on so many levels and told Deni today that you are so courageous, spiritual and resilient. This post is absolutely beautiful and so eloquently written.

Sending you lots of love and I am so grateful for your friendship. Good things are on the horizon!

During this month of thanks...I am very thankful for you! And I thank God for this friendship made in Heaven :)


Angie H said...

Hi Shandrea !

What a wonderful post !
It inspires and lifts me up.
I wish I could feel the same but right now I cant .
Thank you so much for sharing .

waiting41infla said...

I have missed you and your wisdom. You did not disappoint with your post. I am trying to gather some of your strength and positivity from your post.
You are such an inspiration and I am so proud of you for being where you are in thie journy and for never giving up.

You are in my thoughts and prayers always..thanks for the support..what I would do without you I don't know and will not find out.
Enjoy Thanksgiving with your mom!!!!

Antoinette said...

<3 you xoxoxo

Karen said...

Shandrea, this was a beautiful post that I know you were only able to type out because of God's grace. You are so precious and I am so glad our paths have crossed. I will be praying for you as you approach these milestones!

LetterstoClaire said...

Hi! I'm new to your blog and I had to leave a little comment on this particular post. I love you describe the sense of peace that God has given you during this difficult time. When I went into the hospital for preterm labor, our doctors gave Claire only a 5% chance of surviving. I felt the deepest sadness at the knowledge that we were likely going to lose her, but I truly understand the peace that you are talking about. I think only God can provide the kind of peace that allows us to not only survive these moments but to thrive in them with his loving care. God Bless! www.letterstoclaire.com

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