Saturday, July 2, 2011

1 Year in Heaven

So today marks one year since you've been gone. I wish I could say the hurt is gone, but it's not. I still have nights that I can't close my eyes because all I see are our last days together. I still cry at the fact that of those 2hrs you were alive after you were born I was asleep for most of them. I still cry at the fact that I don't have you here. But I can say the pain is less. I smile at the fact that I love you so much, I sometimes smile just thinking of your sweet name, I smile at the fact that though not on this side, I will still see you again. I thank God for the lessons learned from you.

I also want to share something your Daddy wrote for you. He doesn't have a blog but he posts about you and your brother and you sister on facebook :

The loss of a child is not something you get over... It's something you get through" I miss you. Life just hasn't been the same since you've been gone, and since you've been gone, my love for you has grown; along, with the pain of loosing you, and the pain of loosing you, is something I will never get use to. I use to; cry myself to sleep at night thinking of you, and thinking of you; I still do; because I miss you

There couldn't have been better words spoken

Happy 1yr in heaven sweet boy. Eventhough you couldn't be in a safer place, I still wish you were here with me.