Saturday, July 2, 2011

1 Year in Heaven

So today marks one year since you've been gone. I wish I could say the hurt is gone, but it's not. I still have nights that I can't close my eyes because all I see are our last days together. I still cry at the fact that of those 2hrs you were alive after you were born I was asleep for most of them. I still cry at the fact that I don't have you here. But I can say the pain is less. I smile at the fact that I love you so much, I sometimes smile just thinking of your sweet name, I smile at the fact that though not on this side, I will still see you again. I thank God for the lessons learned from you.

I also want to share something your Daddy wrote for you. He doesn't have a blog but he posts about you and your brother and you sister on facebook :


The loss of a child is not something you get over... It's something you get through" I miss you. Life just hasn't been the same since you've been gone, and since you've been gone, my love for you has grown; along, with the pain of loosing you, and the pain of loosing you, is something I will never get use to. I use to; cry myself to sleep at night thinking of you, and thinking of you; I still do; because I miss you





There couldn't have been better words spoken

Happy 1yr in heaven sweet boy. Eventhough you couldn't be in a safer place, I still wish you were here with me.

5 comments:

Ann said...

Thinking of you and your sweet baby. Sending HUGS

Deni said...

Oh Shannie! This just makes me cry! I know your heart aches so badly with the missing your sweet boy and that your sweet hubby can express those feelings so eloquently, well, just WOW!!! Sending love to you both and lots of love to heaven for your sweet third child!

Kara said...

Big HUGS Shandrea on this difficult anniversary! What a lovely note your husband posted and what love you both share for each other and for your sweet babes in heaven.

cgd said...

thinking of you sweetie and all of your little angels today and always....

Holly said...

Much love to you and Tristen ♥♥

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