Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I've been thinking about my post yesterday and I feel like though it was what I was feeling at the time, I think bits and pieces may have sounded a little whiny and somewhat selfish. I know that yes I have to look out for my feelings but I also feel like it sorta seemed like I wasn't really thinking about the God I served. There have been many instances over this past month where I thought I would lose it or find myself gettting ready to have a fit and a few hours or days later he has provided a way ( I call these my "coulda had a V8" moments) because just when I fall apart he's there puting me together and then I'm looking at myself like "drea all you had to do was wait on me" then I calm down and go about my mary way until the next thing comes up. So I am telling myself now that I will calm down and hold on because I know God is able and I just have to trust him. Katy had a great verse on her pray date blog tuesday which I'm gonna put here too because it was truly what I needed to hear.

James 1:2-4
2My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;

3Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.

4But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

and also another verse that I have been holding too lately that seems to bring me peace

Isaiah 61:3

To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.

So Lord I'm here though I may be a lil impatient at times I'm holding on as best I can and waiting on you.


Deni said...

You're beautiful! That's all!

Debby@Just Breathe said...

God is really touching your heart. It has me in awe.

Ann said...

So relieved that God has taken you to a better place. You are amazing!

waiting41infla said...

you need an avenue to vent and your faith brought you back. Take your days one step at a time. I am thinking and praying for you.

Angie H said...

Hi Shandrea

I read your previous post yesterday but never got the time to answer .
I was going to tell you to find ways to protect your heart and your feelings.
I was going to suggest if its possible for your sister to stay with you mother and maybe you could help to look after her child when she is at school in order to help her ( I dont know if your mother lives close to you ? )
When I read your post today it seems like you have found an answer to your problems yourself .
You never have to apologize for venting , its healthy to acknowledge your feelings and not bottle them up inside .
You are an amazing person and your strong faith is an inspiration for me .
Honnestly I dont think I could have coped with my pregnant sister living with me and would have asked her to go and live with our mother if it was possible BUT you never know how you react to something until it actually happens to you so maybe I would have coped with it in the name of love for my sister I dont know but my first reaction when I read your post was " protect your feelings and take care of YOU as you cant let your heart break "
However I do strongly believe in you and a good future for you and I pray often that God will bless you with an earthly baby soon .
Love Angie

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